i tink tis will be my last few posts i m gg to put up le.. i m v tired le.. sumtimes i rly wake up n tink.. is tis juz another day? another day dat has no purpose for me.. whether i exist or not will not affect anyone.. it's juz one more person in cls.. one more leader in band.. one more fren out of e thousands..
i m v troubled.. but i cant seem to find anyone to tok to.. i cant find e right one.. i dun even noe wad i m typing nw.. lyk as if someone will rly noe wad i feel..
it's all my fault la.. i m nt gd enuff.. stupid.. simple-minded.. only noe how to hurt ppl.. dunno how to cheer them up.. e only tink i can do is to smile to others n hope dat others do too.. n scold myself deep down.. i m happy dat i m gg to step down le.. coz i m nt gg to cause anymore trouble le.. e only thing i can tink of nw is to study.. n nt let my parents.. they r my onli 'motivations' in life..
thr r many things i wanna sae.. but i cant do it here.. n i cant find anyone to tok to either.. so let my juz bury all my thoughts along wif tis blog.. i m gg to post 1 more time.. aft my taiwan trip.. till then..
oh ya.. n happy bdae szejie kevin n huda..
Thursday, May 15, 2008
tagged by shirin 1. What age do you wish to marry ? *i prefer to let fate decide 2. What you want the most right now ? *e special warmth i yearn to hav..e special song i wish to hear.. chim rite? hahaz=P 3. What do you want to be in your next life ? *a star..e one on e sky k.. 4. Do you experience true love before? *no..not yet..half of it nia.. 5. If you can have 1 more dream to come true, what would it be ? *to paint wif all e colors of e wind 6. What are you afraid to lose now ? *e faith of e special one 7. Do you believe in ETERNAL love ? *i m realistic..but i will love her all my life.. 8. If you met someone that you love, would you confess to him/her ? *my heart will decide 9. How can you spend 200 bucks ? *eat..arcade bball..save e rest.. 10. Family or friends, which one more important ? *she is.. 11. Which type of person do you hate most ? *super selfish ppl.. 12. So you cherish every of your friendship ? *of coz la.. 13. Do you believe in God ? *if thr is God..ppl won't be suffering.. 14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life ? *my heart..she's in it.. 15. Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend ? *it is juz a recognition..wad i nid is a soulmate.. 16. What do you want your friends to be like ? *lyk themselves.. 17. What kind of drama/movie you like ? *action-packed ones.. 18. What is your favourite hobby ? *soccer..arcade-raiding..star-gazing.. 19. If you're feeling low one day, who will you go to ? *my best frens..i hav 2..n my CLOSE fren lala =)..n e stars in e sky.. 20. What do you do to sort your feelings out? *i will watch e stars..i dun hav to do anyting..e stars will do it for me.. ---*Instruction: Remove one question from above and add in your personal question, make it total 20 questions, then tag 8 people on your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chatbox that he/she had been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have the blessing from all.
e bz man finally comes on9 n blog le.. hahaz.. sry la.. too bz le.. tests n hw n band pracs.. nw muz prepare for midyrs n taiwan trip le..
istana performance on labour day was great man!! other than e fact i screw up all my solos..zzz.. it was great though.. aloy was damn shuai playing his solo.. elaine's solo was oso beautiful.. trumpets oso played v loudly.. everyone did well la.. e president was oso v happy abt performance.. i tink tis will be a great boost for us juz b4 e taiwan trip.. it was more of a bonding session aft e performance.. we toured ard e istana building.. quite cool.. took alot of pics.. i din take many.. coz hav to look aft e 'kids'.. but it was still fun.. oh ya... mrs tan rox la.. she went down to support e band even though she wasnt feeling well.. tmr muz giv her e get well card.. muz rmb.. hahaz..
e next dae was our bonding session.. e bonding session dragged abit.. but it was still fun.. i sacrificed my shirt juz for e bbq lor.. nt dat i burnt my shirt to start e fire la.. it's juz dat i had a hard time to get e black stains off my shirt.. hahaz.. but it was still worth it.. i can rly feel e band closer le.. c if dat will benefit us n let us play btr music.. for pics of e bonding session n e istana performance rite... u can visit e band blog.. or go to e college portal.. can c my ugly face.. hahaz..
hahaz.. din feel so happy ever since sec sch le.. band makes me happy lor..n nt forgetting her too.. n super-bz of coz..sent her hm every now n thn oso..so happy X) hahaz.. so in e mood to study oso.. although nt v confident abt e past test.. quite disappointed to get 9/15 for my maths.. econs sure fail le.. coz no time to write.. but i noe how to do lor.. so happy.. geog test coming up.. muz pass tis time ard..
sound so positive rite? hahaz.. i tink i m too happy n near crazy le.. hahaz.. okae la.. i btr carry on wif my hw le.. wish me luk.. n hope u enjoy tis mth's playlist.. din listen to many new songs.. so i used some disney classics as substitutes.. hope u lyk it.. bye bye =)
is it me
be bold
are the words too weak ?
or things weren't obvious enough
Targets for Midyrs
Maths - A
Econs - D
Geog - D
Phy - A
GP - C
the darkest star
Guanri
17July1990
Pioneer Junior College
..Symphonic Band
07A03
if u have not noticed..
..i hav been shining at night