yoz guys!! 1 whole wk nv post le.. haiz.. too bz these few daes.. bz studying.. bz wif band stuff.. bz bz bz..
ytd was meet-the-parents session for us.. boring.. thr were oso talks by various uni-s too.. onli interested in SMU nia.. wa.. e tution fees r damn high sia.. nt easy to get in oso.. haiz.. muz study v hard le.. my mum n i were probably e firx to meet ms wong.. nt bad.. alot of gd comments abt me by e tchers.. except... my juliana wong.. she said i was distracted in cls.. wadever la!!! heck care la.. looks lyk i m on my own for econs.. let her conduct e lesson for herself.. lyk she always do.. i so lyk my mum.. she is so supportive of me.. encouraging me to work harder.. n nt scolding me n toking nonsense all e time.. which my dad always does.. so it was pretty much okae ytd..
we oso went to sufi's hse to study ytd.. alot of things happened.. u can ask kevin to find out more.. hahaz..
haiz.. i sigh alot hor.. hahaz.. life is getting so boring.. my onli colours in life nw are my frens in sch le.. n music of coz.. things look kinda hopeless oso.. tchers keep saying we do well for a lvls given our standards.. retaining may not be an option available for us le.. we can onli move forward.. even though it may be e edge of a cliff for us.. haiz.. i nid a wind.. dat can lift me thru tis lifeless path.. i nid some stars.. to giv my glimpse of hope in tis darkness.. i nid someone.. so dat when i close my eyes.. it's nt juz darkness dat i see.. sad to say.. all these may onli be my wishful thinking..
wake up.. it's time to study..
Sunday, April 13, 2008
i will go straight to pt for todae.. bpmb gt silver for syf band comp 2008.. n i m nt happy abt it at all..
it was 5 am in the morning.. several ex-band peeps along wif ms ng were alrdy outside national stadium.. having our breakfast while waiting for e gates to open.. we were thr to book e best seats for e sch n alumnis to watch bpband shine on e field.. aft dat.. we went bac to sch.. many other alumnis n parents were alrdy thr watching them prac.. e whole sch was oso thr le.. aft some encouragement we were all set to go..
it was all intense at e national stadium.. as usual e other bands were showing off their stuff to boost their own morale.. our band took it easy.. played thru one time.. n even took a band pic.. we were so confident thn..
i saw tk.. thn pinyi.. n bowen.. pinyi was quite gd frm my pt of view.. n bowen looked lyk a sick tiger..
it was our turn next.. we looked magnificent.. fanwei was great.. din even drop e mace once.. e rest were oso doing their best.. so proud of them..
okae.. they gav their best shot le.. so i went up to c e rest perform.. no doubt.. deyi's drum major was e best among all.. deyi had oso outdone tk to get e best band.. but..
orchid park-silver.. tk-gold wif honors.. pingyi-silver.. bowen-gold.. we were damn happy upon hearing bowen getting gold.. but.. bpghs-silver.. e f word juz came out of my mouth.. n e list went on.. yusof ishak-silver.. westspring-silver.. deyi-gold wif honors.. springfield-bronze..
wth.. e band cried of coz.. n i was juz damn angry n pissed off by e judgement.. i tink i dowan to carry on le.. if nt i will juz flood my whole post wif sensored words..
guys.. don be sad abt it.. they gav u a silver.. i giv them a thumbs down for judging.. ur medal may be silver.. but bpmb will always be labelled gold.. u guys rock!! get gold wif honors e next time.. n make them eat ur silver medal..
dat's all.. feels great aft scolding those bastards..
Thursday, April 10, 2008
miserable.. the only word i can describe myself nw.. u can imagine how miserable i m.. doing my miserable routine.. n having such miserable grades.. wad a miserable state i m in.. miserable..
studying.. haiz.. e more i study.. e more i feel that i cant do it.. memorising stuff is juz nt my forte.. my supporting evidence will be my econs n geog grades.. miserable 'U's.. another stupid problem i hav.. i cant write fast.. dat's damn dumb.. cant score becoz cant write fast.. cant i juz type out my essays.. i dunno la.. ms tan still suan me juz nw.. study so much still get such grades ar.. even szejie has sumting to say.. damn sad la..
study grps.. dat one more classic la.. studying in a grp is supposed to help me improve rite.. but how i come i feel dat i m e onli one nt improving in e grp? firx thing.. in the band onli me n michelle take H2 geog.. but she's nt in e grp.. second thing.. most peeps.. especially peeps frm my cls.. use study grps to consult me maths.. it's nt dat i dowan other peeps to ask me maths la.. but r we supposed to hav peeps hu r gd in other subjects to help too? ask enoch geog.. he will keep saying 'i tink it's lyk dat'.. econs.. so far it's still majority of e peeps asking me qns rather than e other way rd.. wa lao.. lyk dat how to improve.. consultations.. wanna ask e tchers why is tis tis tis lyk dat.. they will juz say u dunno coz u din study ur notes..go n find out urself.. or u dun expect me to giv u e ans rite? onli ms leong n ms lee actually answer my qns.. although most of e time i dun understand ms lee
it's my fault la.. for choosing a combi dat nt many peeps actually take.. so my solution to dat.. ..is to study even harder.. boring.. sad life.. sad me..maybe tinking of her let be happier for a short while..but other than dat.. no motivation at all..
okae.. i btr 'self-motivate' agn.. n study ALONE agn.. as usual.. maybe setting targets might work.. c how for mid-yrs..
is it me
be bold
are the words too weak ?
or things weren't obvious enough
Targets for Midyrs
Maths - A
Econs - D
Geog - D
Phy - A
GP - C
the darkest star
Guanri
17July1990
Pioneer Junior College
..Symphonic Band
07A03
if u have not noticed..
..i hav been shining at night